MY BIRTHDAY ....MY THOUGHTS

MY BIRTHDAY ....MY THOUGHTS 

Today is my birthday ....  A celebration of my life .....The day God decided to send me on this holy earth ......come to think of it everyday is a celebration of life ..every day brings a new dawn .There was a desire to push the pedal  strongly all along those early years, to mature, to become an adult, to bring on greater age and to savor what comes with it .Now I depress the brakes of the pedal with equal effort, and hope to stem the slide as it were and accept everything gracefully, all that I got ,all that I lost and all that I have now . I accept the years, the giving up on time ,the giving up of my loving soulmate and giving up on age. It shall happen to us all. That is the commonality of the process of life. We are blessed, all of us .

Many years ago today was the day my mother felt proud cuddling her newborn  daughter in her arms .My parents left no stone unturned to make me what I am today .Ma and Pa  though you are not with me today I can feel your hand on my head blessing me ,I can feel your warm  breath in the air on this cold winter’s day ,I can feel your loving hug consoling me  during my failures . Ma you are the sound of the rain that lulls me to sleep, You both live inside  my laughter. You gave  me my first home, and a   map  to  follow with every step I took and you  were there to support me at every step I stumbled .You gave me all that I ever wanted .You were my first love, my first friend and even  my first enemy, but nothing on earth can separate you  from me ...Not time, not space…….. not even death. this poem is dedicated to you with lots of love .


Wish me happy birthday dear ,
It certainly peps me up with cheer ,
To count how long I have been here .
I need to scratch my head for sure .

Does it really matter how old I am ,
What really matters is how I swam.
Where I slipped and where I fell ,
How I let go the hurt and got  well ,

On  the roller coaster  waves I rode .
Many life lessons just  poured and flowed ,
Some  were sweet and some  were bitter .
But life taught me not to be  a quitter .

I learned to surf above the nasty throws 
The highs just came after each low ,
I swam with the tide along its flow ,
Realizing not to fight but to let go .

I let go my grief in loosing my soulmate ,
It  taught me ,to respect  Gods will and my fate .
To cherish what I have in my life now ,
 And to let the past not trouble me anymore 

Life  was not about how much I got 
Life  was all about giving others  a lot .
A happy me  was just not enough .
Making  others happy is what pulled me up 

God gave me all in abundance I agree ,
Reminding me daily  to distribute it for free ,
Love and kindness he gave me to share ,
Emptying myself brought more  to spare 

Every day brought a new beginning ,
Every mistake taught me the  next swing ,
Life's experiences  showed me the spiritual way ,
To be happy and spread happiness every single day .

Growing up  for sure is mandatory ,
But my heart growing old  is  not obligatory ,
Being young at heart is not age related ,
I wonder why this is often debated.

Acting my age is what is expected of me ,
How elders behave is a set pattern most see ,
But I want to  become a little child now 
Love ,laugh, play ,be happy with a child like glow .

A child with a new set of parents to chill ,
Yes they are my  caring sons and DIL'S ,
Their concerns  make me emotional sometimes ,
I thank the almighty for showing me these times .

The praise I get from my well wishers are HIS ,
HE does all and I get the credit ,
HE is my best friend doing all for me ..the doer ,
I am nobody .....being only ............the knower .

I am thankful to HIM  for always  being by my side ,
Never leaving my hand  however rough be the ride ,
I pray to God almighty with folded hands and bent knees ,
All we humans want in this world is love and peace .

Pushpa  Chaturvedi