I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU DEAR BROTHER

I am here ,but  I don't see you here,

Where are you my dear  brother,

Your loving smile is haunting me,

Your cute child like face I want to see.

Your hearty laugh and your warm hug,

On disagreeing with me your shoulder shrug,

The  memorable childhood days we spent,

Your love and anger ,the gifts you sent. 

The fun and frolic  we three siblings shared,

Our secrets and  plans to each other we bared,

I   was  always the pampered little sister,

But at times you both made me cry my dear brother.

I remember the days you pleaded with me,

Not to reveal your naughty acts to mummy,

Bribing me with the things  I  liked ,

I  always tried to  do what you wanted .

Our  fights  and  making up made my days,

Caring ,sharing and your adamant ways,

Your  big  brother  concern  you always showed ,

Life was beautiful together on life's road 

Fighting back my tears is all I do know,

Consoling my loving sis in law ,but how?

God give us courage and  strength to endure,

The seething pain in our hearts to heal and cure .

I know now you are  safe  in Gods  lap,

Released from the pain ,in a blissful nap.

But still  my dear brother we are searching for you,
In this corner here ,where we always found you.

Remember dear brother we all love you  very much.

We pray to God  for your soul to rest in peace and happiness .

Death of a loved one is a reminder that there are few things in this life that  we can never control.
Death being one of them .

I lost my beloved elder brother  recently .

Trying hard  to keep back my tears ,feeling the intense pain and praying to God . To lose a brother is to lose someone with whom you share  your growing up years and share the experience of growing old, who brings you a sister-in-law and nieces and  nephews who  are a part of the tree of your life and give it new branches and new meanings .

Rest in peace  dear brother .

MY OTHER MOTHER

I am a lucky daughter ,

I got the love of two mothers,

One gave birth to me,

Nurtured me the best,

Never took any rest,

With tears in her eyes,

She gifted me away ,

To a loving man,

With advice to go and rise,

To love and respect ,

His mother as my mother 

I am a lucky wife,

My  loving man gave me

His  doting lovely mother 

In my new life,

She gave me her gracious son,

We cared and shared as one,

As mothers and daughters do,

She laughed and cried with me ,

When I felt happy or blue,

Her understanding and love,

Helped me to rise high above.

I tried never to let her feel ,

I  was her daughter from a deal,

To give her my best concern ,

And never expect anything in return

Now both are in my heart.

Never ever to part.

I am now the other mother ,

To my sons loving wife's,

My god sent caring  daughters ,

With whom I share my  life .

जाने क्यूँ / JANE KYON

जाने क्यूँ बादलों में छुपके मुस्कुरा रहे हो तुम,

काश मैं उड़ के तुम्हारे बाहों में समा जाऊँ ,

प्यार भरी गुफ़्तगू में खो जाऊँ ,

सारे आकाश में खुशी से झूमूं और लहराऊं ।

जाने क्यूँ तेज़ समुनदर की लहरों में नज़र आ रहे हो तुम,

काश इन लहरों के आग़ोश  में समा जाऊँ ,

झूमती  लिपटती  तुम से समुनदर की गैहिराहियों में ,

बेहोश सी,मदहोश सी, तुम्हारे आलिंगन में ।

जाने क्यूँ  छू कर गऐ मेरे गालों को हवा का झोंका बन के तुम,

बदन में ऐक हलचल उठी तुम्हारी इस प्यारी सी हरकत से,

मेरे ज़ुल्फ़ों को सैहिला कर अब कहाँ  हो गऐ हो गुम,

तुम्हारी इन्हीं क़ातिल अदाओं  से मैं हो गई हूँ घायल ।

जाने क्यूँ  कर रहा ये दिल क़यामत  का बेसब्री  से इन्तज़ार ,

क़यामत आजाए और मेरे नज़रों के सामने आजाओ तुम,

दुआ माँगती हूँ रब से ,अब मुझे अपने पास बुला लो तुम ,

अपनी बाँहों में लपेट लो नहीं तो जीते जी मर जाएँगे हम ।

Jane kyon badalon me chupe  muskura rahe ho tum,

Kaash mai  udh ke tumare baahon me sama jaon,

Pyar bhari guftagoo  mey   kho jaoon,

Sare akash me khushi se jhoomu  aur leheraoon.

Jane kyon tez samundar ki lehron me nazar aa  rahe  ho  tum

Kaash in lehron ki aagosh me  sama  jaoon,

Jhoom tee  lipat tee samundar kee gehraye on mey

Behosh see ,madhosh see,  tumare alingan mey,

Jane kyon choo kar gaye mere gaalon ko  hawa ka jhonka banke tum

Badan mey ek hulchul uthi  tumare es pyaree harkat se.

Mere zulphon ko sehla kar ab kahan  ho gaye ho gum,

Tumare Inhi katil aadaon  sey  main ho gayee hoon  ghayal.

Jane kyon kar raha ye dil  qayamat  ka besabri  sey intezar.

qayamat aa  jaegee aur  meree nazron ke saamne aa jaoge tum

Dua maangtee hoon Rab sey , ab mujhe apne paas bula lo tum,

Apne bahoon me  lappet lo ,nahi to jeete jee mar jayenge hum.

WAITING FOR YOU

As days pass by ,

The sun rises and sets,

It never forgets ,

I am waiting for you ,

Why do you forget?

Sun smiles each day,

Spreads its golden rays 

Not like what you do,

It's now so many days ,

If many more go  by,

I will  wither and pass away,

The full moon recedes ,

Disappears  one day.

Appears  and grows again,

Filling the dark night ,

With its  moon light,

You seem to forget,

To follow  even that,

I stare in the dark ,

Searching for a spark .

But alas it is still very dark .

The fire and ice ,

I feel inside,

Leads me to you,

But you forget,

That I detest ,

Not to be  with you,

Waiting is painful,

Tell me if you don't 

Love me anymore,

I'll understand ,

You have the courage ,

To accept ,

I'll cry my heart out ,

And  try to forget,

I know I will still doubt.

And what I will still  do ,

Is that i will be waiting for you !

I LOVE MYSELF

I was talking to myself, no not exactly so ,

I was talking to my best friend ,who  lives in me you know.

We love and respect  each other,be it  hot summer or spring

My best friend and me share each and everything,

But we sometimes do not share our brain and heart.

Our brains and hearts at times differ and think wide  apart.

When my heart does a crazy  mindless jig ,

Her heart  always makes a sensible  wise dig,

She tries to control my hearts meanderings,

Preaches my heart to stop these silly flings.

My brain tries to explain ,but all goes in vain,

As  her brain scolds me  saying it will hurt and pain.

I sometimes forget  and speak negative to myself,

She reminds me then not to be unkind to myself,

I soon let down my hair and pamper myself to no end,

Like a hot bubble bath or dining out with an old friend ,

Or ensconced in my favorite corner reading a book,
Sometimes writing poetry brings a shine on my look.

I am learning to listen to my best friend within me,

The pleasure  that she gives me is great and totally free,

She keeps on whispering so that I don't get hurt anymore 

But my silly heart and brain sometimes  seem to ignore 

The deep inner messages in my best friends voice 

Are actually God Almighty's  guiding lights in disguise !

Loving my best friend more then myself,

Actually means  I am at  peace and happy as 

I  LOVE  MYSELF 

We spend so much time waiting to be loved, hoping love will find us.

Searching , yearning for that special love. 

Feeling empty and lost without it. 

Wanting someone to give us love and fill us up. 

Unfortunately, that’s not usually how life works. 

Loving yourself is mainly having self-respect which is the only dependable way to create love in your own life to share with others. 

When you expect love from an external source, and someone or something does not fulfill your void and fantasies, then you will feel worse than before. 

To be able to be loved, you must love and respect yourself as much as you do others.

A DINNER DATE

His heart wanted some more,
Lets go out for dinner" he implored,

To spend time with him again ,

My heart fought with my brain.

People had started  whispering ,

Friends were smiling and  mocking,

 Despite this,his gestures I could not ignore,

Love was blossoming slowly,I could feel it grow.

A red rosé on the table with candles around,

The slow romantic music ,oh!the soothing sound,

Couples dancing  elegantly on the dance floor,

Hands wet with sweat ,my heart was beating more.

He gently put his hand around my  bare waist,

Led me to the dance floor in  great haste,

I couldn't resist , I was in a trance ,
Our eyes met and we sailed  into a dance .

lost track of time , thought this should never end,

On the dance floor , our love was on an ascend,

Music stopped ,claps echoed , it was time to dine,

He escorted me hand in hand ,I was on cloud nine.

Hunger was away ,my heart thumped abound,

On our table then ,a special cake I  found,

"I love you" on it with red cherries all around,

He smiled  charmingly ,I blushed and looked down.

"Let's cut the cake" he whispered endearingly,

Offering me the red rosé sweetly and seductively,

He caught  my hand   and steered  me ahead gently,

Amazed and surprised ,I looked at him lovingly.

OMG the claps came again  from  far and near

I felt happy and shy  at this resounding cheer .

MAA TUMHARE BAHUT YAAD AATE HAI

Maa aaj tumhare bahut yaad aa rahe hai

Rothi  thi jab tum ne seene se lagaya,

Bhook lagi to tum ne khilaya,

Naraz hue to tum ne Manaya,

Saham  gaye to godh me uthaya,

Chot lagee to tum ne sehlaya,

Beemar hue to apne ghodi me sulaya,

Door hue nazron se to mujhe bulaya,

Acha Insaan ban na tumne sikhaya,

Mere sapnon ko tumne sajaya,

Ma ab koyee mujhe godh nahi leta,

Ma ab mujhe koyee nahi sehlata.

Tanhaiyon me Maa ,

Mai ab bhi tumhe pukartee hoon,

Aur kabhi ansoo bhi Bahati hoon,

Phir takiye se lipat ke so jatee hoon.

Maa tumhare bahut yaad aate hai.